This Is Now…
March 2008
Ever heard the saying “What doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger.†The past year for me has been one of incredible growth. Such growing pain I would never wish on another soul. However, as I read what I wrote about myself a year ago, I realized that in the midst of my trials, I somehow accomplished my goal of striving to be a better me, and I have found happiness within myself.
So, while some things stay the same…I still have that strange name that provokes quizzical looks and obvious questions…I still have those two sweet, energetic boys that fill my days with laundry and cartoons…I still enjoy watching movies… and I still long to live by the ocean…
Some things change…I gathered some new hobbies and interests…I started working after being a stay at home mommy for 6 ½ years…I changed some of my perceptions and beliefs…and I had many new experiences that would not have come to me in my old life.
While it has been a difficult road, I am grateful for the opportunity I was given to make changes in my life. But mostly, I am grateful for my family and my friends that helped me to survive.
That Was Then…
January 2007
My name is Cinnamon, yes that is my real name. No, I don’t know exactly why my parents chose that name, but it suits me. I could not answer to any other name. (Thirty-one years of conditioning does wonders huh?) So, that gives away my age…
I am the mother of two very sweet and energetic boys, Hunter and Colton, who are my entire world. I enjoy watching movies, obviously, and also reading, cross-stitching, and scrapbooking. I hate to cook, but I like to eat (out). I’m easily talked into spending a day at the park in the shade of a big tree. I long to live by the ocean. And last but not least, I am surprised to find that I am a writer.
I am at a turning point in my life, recently and unexpectedly divorced, and realizing more each day that I am not who I want to be. So I am on a personal quest; a search and a journey to find happiness within myself. Perhaps this is a goal that all of us have. This blog is one small part of that quest. I hope that as I very vulnerably try to express myself, that you will get some enjoyment/insight/laughter out of this too.